Today my heart is burdened.
It is heavy with a sadness that can be overwhelming at times.
Some things in life are just plain trust and faith in a God who we KNOW is in charge and is in complete control...yet we as humans struggle because WE can not change our circumstances.
We like to think we are in the driver's seat. We like to think we are in charge and the master of our tiny universe. BUT the truth is we are truly helpless in need of Someone else to take over and be in charge.
Do you ever feel like your life is out of control?
Think of it this way...
“Dinner’s not made; the house is a mess; the laundry is piled up; the baby is sick; the preacher is coming for supper tomorrow; it’s four in the afternoon, and I’m still in pajamas!”
"My sister is seriously ill with an unknown illness in a foreign country without real contact with her and I am in a complete utter state of helplessness to do anything for her or her beautiful little family...except pray"
Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand.
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Our God is in the heavens; he does all that he pleases.
I can not count all the times in my life that is seems my life is "out of control". If however, I believe God's Word to be true,and My Heavenly Father to be who He claims to be, my life IS "out of my control" and in the hand of the Almighty One who knows so much more than I.
I love the word picture of Isaiah 41:10,13 for this very reason. No matter what is going on in our lives, God says...
"Fear not, for I am with you;
be not dismayed, for I am your God;
I will strengthen you, I will help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand".
For I, the Lord your God,
hold your right hand;
it is I who say to you, “Fear not,
I am the one who helps you.”
What a wonderful thing that God holds my hand!
This evening around 4:30 I decided to go to Aldi for groceries. I was running out of food, so I made my menus for 2 weeks and left the house with the two little boys, Timothy and Stephen.
As I entered the store, a man with a jean jacket on followed me in and asked if I had a Corvet with my lights on... :) I laughed and said, "No! I drive a 12 passenger van!" I knew as soon as I spoke those words, I shouldn't have said that.
I continued on with my shopping filling one cart and overflowing to two large boxes. Each time I would round an isle, from the corner of my eye I kept seeing this same guy. I thought he must be working at Aldi because he did not have a cart or any groceries in his arms. Because he had a red tape measure hooked onto his belt, he looked like he worked there.
It took me a good hour to do all my shopping. As I was finishing up, I glanced around and this guy was still around. Now I am not a paranoid person, and I really do not think that everyman in the world is trying to hit on me. For crying out loud...I've had NINE KIDS and a belly to go with it! :)
Anyway, every once in a while I could see him looking at me. Finally, I got in the check out. By this time I was a little nervous and getting suspicious of this guy. He still did not have groceries.
As soon as I got in line. I watched him get a loaf of bread and get in line behind an older man BEHIND me. Now I was nervous. How come it took him an hour to get that bread?
I asked the cash register lady if that man worked at Aldi. When she said no, and saw my alarm, she told me after I bought my groceries to STAY in the store until he left with his bread.
My heart was beating hard...I stayed and watched him check out. He caught my eye and I turned away. I REALLY THINK HE HAD BEEN FOLLOWING ME IN THE STORE.
I waited about 5 minutes...then pushed the horn button on my keys...As my van honked and flashed its lights, Timothy, Stephen, and I walked out of Aldi to the van.
I was soooooo nervous, that I decided that I was just going to let my van make a ton of noise until I got all the groceries loaded and us in the car with the door locked!
I did not care who was annoyed by all my commotion...All the while my van was honking and flashing, I kept thinking if any guy was going to get me, he was going to do it with a lot of flashing and noise!! :)
I praise God for his protection and I am glad to be home!
But let all who take refuge in you rejoice; let them ever sing for joy, and spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may exult in you.
God reached down in love and rescued Cassandra from her sin at the age of 21: changing her life, purpose, and focus forever.