What? You Are Pregnant? Again?

Recently we put a new banner up on the Blog. Have you noticed it? I wanted to announce our new addition at 12 weeks, but because I obviously am showing and people were guessing we put the banner up early.

I am now 11 weeks.

Many questions, WHAT? You are pregnant? I thought you were done? I thought you could not/should not have anymore.

Let me answer some of those questions the best we can.

God has graciously given my husband and I the privilege of having 9 living children. I have enjoyed each one that God has given me. But you will notice that I DO NOT brag, or make a big deal about  the number of children we have. I’m not saying it’s wrong to talk about how many children you have in your home, but I’ve talked to so many grieving ladies who would love to have ONE baby or they have one, but have never been able to another…that my heart grieves for them.

We never sought to have a lot of children, God has truly given each one of them to us.
My prayer is that each one will learn the reality of salvation, God will change their lives, and because of Christ in their life, many others will SEE Christ and learn of the Saviour.

Many of you know that my husband is on different medications for certain illnesses God has allowed him to have. He has bad days and good days. One particular medication he is taking is not good for pregnancy. I AM NOT supposed to get pregnant or be able to have another little one…because the medication could harm the baby.

I am.

God has given me another.

Yes, we were surprised.

Yes, we did use prevention.

I also believe that MY God is the giver and taker of life. He is the Creator of every life, including the little one that is growing in my womb.

John 1:3  All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made.

Paul writes:
.But when it pleased God, who separated me from my mother's womb, and called me by his grace,"
Galatians 1:15

God knew David before he was born:
For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. ~Psalm 139:13-15

God knew Jeremiah:
"Then the word of the Lord came unto me, saying, "Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations." ~Jeremiah1:4-5

I love how God sees children. Unfortunately the world sees children in a negative light, but God LOVES each little one.
"Lo, children are an heritage of the Lord: and the fruit of the womb is His reward. ~Psalm 127:3

Scripture even tells us that we are created in the image of God. What an awesome thought!

Bottom line:

God has given a beautiful little life for me to carry these nine months. Please pray for this little one.

Because of Michael’s medicine: God could call this little one home, God could allow us to have a special needs child, or God could give us a miracle.

It is not an easy thing to wait on Him. Believe me, the blogging world may look like a world of perfectly decorated homes, great dinner ideas, loving families, and a home that runs smoothly in every way.

But reality looks completely different. Not one person or family is perfect or “has it all together”. Only through the Grace and Mercy of Jesus can the reality of a Godly home even start.

The truth is my house is not clean... No one has been harmed. My homeschool is running... But the kids are being VERY self sufficient. Meaning, they have been on their own, and I don't feel great, yet life still continues. People are still being fed, no one is starving, yet it is not gourmet meals. I am getting grumpy and irritable…

One of the perpetrators of my mess.

The truth: my attitude is really what matters in the whole scheme of things. I need to keep my focus on Jesus and not my imperfect life.

If I'm spiritually out of sorts because my life is out of sorts, then my children suffer. If I’m grumpy because I’m sick of being sick, then my husband suffers. If I care more about the lack of organization of my home and less about my own starving spiritual soul…I suffer.

But however, if I call on God and trust His empowering work of victory over sin in my life in spite of my feelings, and follow that through with GRATFULNESS, gentleness, and kindness that only comes from God, the home has the peace it needs, despite the mess and mommy being exhausted and sick. It really does make a difference.

Pray for me. I want to be the grateful loving mom that leans on Jesus and NOT the complaining grumpy mom that takes it out on my family.

Someday soon the snow will melt, the sun will return, I'll feel better, and my house will be clean. Until then, I'll bask in the love of my savior and my family. I will enjoy this new normal…

My prayer is that as I continue this journey of life with this little one, God does a great work in my life as well as in each of my children.