Well...Praise the Lord I have made it to 39 weeks!! After much prayer, hormone shots, tears, and more prayer. We are nearing the end.

However, this baby has not been cooperating! :) We thank the Lord that (for all we know) she is healthy and happy...but...as of Tuesday, sitting very happily in the breech position.

I have tried all the natural ways to turn this little girl...so far she is still very comfortable right side up. Monday I am scheduled to see if I can get an external version. If this is the case, I will go in on Wednesday to have the version. If they can successfully turn her, then I will be induced and they will break my water so that the baby will engage and hopefully not turn.

I do not like this scenario. From all I read, not many versions are successful at 39 1/2 weeks, it seems a violent way to turn her, and the risks don't seem worth it to me.

If I am not a candidate for a version, then I will be scheduled for a c-section on Wednesday. Now, anyone who knows my history, know that I have very quick labors (number 6 was born in the van in front of the ER) and have NEVER been this late in my last 8 pregnancies...let alone waiting until I am 39 weeks and 5 days. :)

So what does this all mean? I don't know! If I go into labor this little one will be born emergency c-section.

What is my reaction? Well, first I was emotional from hormones, full of fear, had my tears because of the unknown. I like to know what is going on and when...in other words, I like to be in control of my life.

In this situation, I am not in control. After my emotion, I had to think differently.

Since God gave me this little miracle baby and he created her, her birthday and how she is born is known to Him. My job is to wait, trust in Him, and  not worry or fear.

After this thought,  much prayer and scripture, I was able to remember to think on Truth.. that my trust has been and always will be in my Saviour who created her from the beginning.

Everyone is excited to meet this little life. Because it has been four years between children, I feel as if I am starting over a little and am very excited myself to meet this little miracle blessing!

I have a feeling this baby is going to be one loved little girl!!